listening to // superman :: five for fighting
feeling // inferior

i love that song. feel like asking my girl to tab it out for me. but with that hurt thumb i doubt he'll be able to without feeling pain. prolly i'll go figure it myself if possible. but being musically challenged, i doubt so. haha. i'm seriously starting to fall sick. my tummy's wonky and i've got a sorethroat and a cough. and the new year's coming!! no yummy foodies for me. dammit. hope i get better soon. heh. if not no marche! which means not meeting certain individuals. if he's able to come that is.

recently, i feel so... wierd. like something's wrong around me. like this premonition which makes me think more than required. and usually, paranoid me will end the story in a very sad manner. which leaves me rather depressed. gawd, i hate the feeling. why can't i be more optimistic and have that pollyanna attitude!? grrr. frustrating. but that will come later. i shall try and not be so paranoid. will try and change. but sometimes, you can't help but compare yourself with others. and you can't seem to find anything good about yourself and it makes the other person seem perfect, flawless and damn pretty. it's like beauty and the beast. and then you just start putting yourself down. i lack self confidence. i lack self esteem. i lack... almost everything needed to be a normal happy human being. i lack... a special something. at least i have kat and foo. and jow and my girl. if only you were here. ah, anyways. been ages since i did a quiz.

You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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listening to // molly smiles :: jesse spencer
feeling // sick

hey people! i'm updating. didn't know so many people actually read my blog. well, prolly it's a form on entertainment. hahaha. hooi xun!! update your blog too! *threatens you at gunpoint* ahaha. madness. i don't know what's wrong with me... lately i always wake up with a wonky stomach. thankfully it gets better. hopefully it's not gastric or anything. eeps. so i'm eating koko krunchies. =) yums.

so, the past week of school was pretty much alright. except for a few glitches here and there. damn my dory memory!! keep forgetting to take things out of my locker. and i'll tell the teacher that i left it at home. and i get punished for nothing. sickening. at least i haven't got into any major trouble - yet. haha, not planning to anyways. i'll be a good girl. and the school is gonna cane pupils who are late for school. how crazy is that? sheesh, that's elaine lim for you. but anyways, i'm off to school. got some cheerleading thingy with the drama peeps. it's so fun!!! will update when i get back. till then, cheers!

10:02 PM
Friday, January 09, 2004